The church bell rings. It is six o’clock in the morning. With each step the soles of her stilettos make a new print into the fresh powdered snow that had just fallen overnight. The sun is slowly peaking over the snow-covered mountains on the horizon. The trees look like crystal masterpieces as the rays are gently dancing around the snowflakes. She keeps running seemingly effortlessly in her heels, her breath visible in the freezing air, as she holds on tight to her bag filled with books. Finally, she makes it to the train station and gets on the train seconds before the whistle is heard and the train is headed to the next town.
Writer’s block, writer’s block, writer’s block. How do I get over this writer’s block? I’ve been asking myself this exact question over the past 5 days. It’s been freezing outside and DFW has literally been shut down for three out of 5 days, this week alone, because of ice and snow. Yes, that’s how we roll here in the South, we just close everything when precipitation meets freezing temperatures. I can’t lie, that is still weird to this Swiss girl, even after 9 years of living in Texas.
That woman in the description above, well, that would be me. Yes, that’s how I survived my high school and college days. Nothing ever closed during ice or snow. Nope, it was the way of life and honestly, I absolutely loved it. Ok, maybe I didn’t love always barely getting on the train in the very last minute; blame it on me loving sleep. But to me there is nothing more refreshing than getting up very early on a cold winter day and being one of the first people on the walkway at the crack of dawn.
No matter what was awaiting me that day I just felt like I was on top of the world, believing I could conquer anything; in high heels and all.
Maybe the big “Closed” sign over Texas this week has been the reason why I’ve felt very depressed and had major writer’s block. Sitting inside, in a land without trees, sidewalks, trains, cobblestone streets and mountains has been more than just hard. Then adding an adorable but restless 11-month old and a hubby on crutches, due to a lateral tibial plateau fracture and several sprained ligaments, ain’t exactly lightening the mood. So if I look at the small picture here it is as if my whole life is currently closed. Sounds depressing, I know.
However, as weird as this week may have been, it has given me time to think, like a lot of time to think. Now thinking too much causes a writer’s block inside of my head because my brain takes so many twists and turns that nothing connects and everything is just a big mess. So finally tonight, as both of my loves are already in bed, I decided to just reach for the laptop and to start writing. To my surprise this whole concept took a different route than I expected.
Here we go:
Reach | Reach, yes I chose the word ‘reach’. Why? Because in order to fulfill the call on your life you have to reach out, reach for your dreams. Take a chance.
Quit | Recently I was watching Bob Geoff on a video podcast. He spoke about the fact that he quits something every Thursday. Why? Because that’s the only way to not get stuck in a rut, to make a change in the world and to be able to say ‘yes’ to new opportunities (I’m paraphrasing here). Wow! That statement rocked my world. I want to implement that, starting with quitting little time-consuming things like cleaning too often or picking up toys more than once a day. I know that may seem ridiculous but that’s my world as a mommy right now and I love it. But with no vision and no strategy being a mommy can get pretty overwhelming.
Work Hard | Today I was watching a ‘30 for 30’ ESPN episode (love that show) about a 9-year-old girl who grew up in a family of rodeo barrel racers. Her name is Chayni Chamberlain. This little girl sat on a horse for the first time at 6 months old, started barrel racing at 7 years old, won the championship competing against adults and could win over one million dollars doing what she does this year alone. In the Sports Center interview her mom said that at only seven years old Chayni already knew that she had to work hard to reach her dreams and succeed, so she did.
I know that this post has been very sporadic or should I say all over the place because that’s where my brain is at right now. BUT:
No matter where you come from, where you are at right now, and how impossible it may seem to reach your dreams, do it! Take a step outside of your comfort zone. Doesn’t matter if it’s baby steps or big steps, as long as those steps bring you forward you’re going the right direction. Take a chance!
Tonight I stayed up when everyone went to sleep (worked hard | even though I’m super tired), I chose not to (quit) watch my Sunday night TV show that I usually enjoy, and I stepped out in faith (reached | because I had no clue what to write about) to write this blog. It may not be the best post I’ve ever written but without discipline I’ll never get anywhere.
Today I chose to take advantage of being stuck inside, in a place that doesn’t feel like home, to work on a vision that could lead me to what I’m longing for. I realize that no matter how my circumstances may look like, my life is never closed. I have a call, I have a purpose, I have a legacy to build, I have people to love and care for and most of all I am a daughter of the Most High God. That same God has strategically placed me where I am at right now. He may be the only one that sees the big picture, the purpose of the here-and-now. But I choose to trust Him because He is THE Designer of my very being.
P.S. If you need an inspiration watch a 30 for 30 episode. If a girl who was a world-class snowboarder, before both of her feet had to be amputated, is back on her snowboard again competing, then you also, with a lot of hard work, discipline and focus, can reach your dream.