It was 6am as I was driving through Starbucks on the way to the hospital in the Spring of 2009.
I didn’t sleep at all that previous night nor the weeks leading up to that particular one. Utterly sleep deprived and feeling like I was living a nightmare I remember holding tight to the steering wheel, sitting in line at the drive-thru, staring at the rising sun, desperate for a Word from God, for a glimpse of hope…. In that very moment it came (it always does): “Sorrow comes in the night, but joy comes in the morning… My mercies are new every morning… and my faithfulness will last from everlasting to everlasting.” And oh, has it!
The coming hours, days and months were tough. Really tough. But I knew that God’s promises were yes and amen. They weren’t just some philosophical writings that were handed down from generation to generation.
No, these words were powerful, God-breathed, and sharper than any two-edged sword. These words divided truth from delirium, wisdom from stupidity, life from death. These words, and the continuous tender, loving, and yet precise whispers from God, throughout the coming days and months in particular, lead me to live through the valley of the shadow of death to the other side, still breathing, still standing (on my knees if you will) but still strong.
4 months after that morning drive-thru moment I found myself widowed at 24 years old. I was utterly broken, but not without hope. My heart was utterly shattered but not beyond repair. Why? Because standing on the solid ground that the word of God, his promises, so generously and lovingly provides, saved my butt from the deep hole I could have spiraled down. It is his word and comfort that restored and strengthened me; eventually even made me soar.
What’s my point? Right now as everything on this planet seems to be shaken – pandemic, the temperature of our earth on the rise, stocks free falling, and as human trafficking and child abuse is sickeningly at an all-time high – take hold of God’s hand. His word is the rock to build on, the promise to take hold of, the security to lead from.